Healing

(I just wanted to warn you the next story is a little gruesome and really personal)


For those who know me, know I love babies and would love to have a large family but for those of you who know me WELL, know I really struggle with pregnancy. Seriously being pregnant is one of my favorite things in the world but things don't always happen as they are suppose to in my pregnancies. A couple weeks ago we found out I was pregnant for my seventh time! We were so excited and hoping we would be able to finally invite a fourth child into our family. Because of my history, my doctor has me come to his office every couple of days to test my blood and monitor everything to make sure I am okay. Everything was looking good and we left up to St George for the 4th of July. While up there I started to have some sharp pains in my lower right side of my abdomen. I just took it easy and thought everything would be okay. Surely it was just all in my head. Well by Tuesday night the pains were so intense I couldn't see straight and my body was shaking. I just figured I would go in and see my doctor in the morning. To make a long story short, I was experiencing an ectopic pregnancy. I was placed in the hospital and had to have surgery. The egg was in the right fallopian tube. The tube had opened and I was bleeding internally. Lucky for me a blood clot had stopped the bleeding and saved my life. My doctor had to remove the entire right tube and got the blood inside cleaned up. Right now I am just trying to heal and count my blessings. I am fortunate I have three healthy children, I am alive to be able to teach them and watch them grow, and we have modern medicine (which until a few decades ago ectopic pregnancies were often undetected and took the lives of those they affected). In this life I know the Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away and I can't see the end from the beginning like our Heavenly Father does but I know all things happen for a reason. I do have to say my heart is a little broken right now and through my tears I am praying things get better and we will be able to have another child someday. I do want to thank my husband, mothers, fathers, and sisters for all the love and help they have and are still giving to me. I love you all!